Swallowed

4.23.04

Sometimes the memories are just too fresh
To wallow in them
Sometimes they cloud my head
And I can go deaf for hours
I blink,
I think,
I still don’t know why?
I swallow my pain
It swims around inside of me,
Scratching,
Clawing,
Desperately needing to submerge
The emptiness swallows me whole
It overcomes me,
And succumbs me to nothingness
It’s like a reel picture show
And I’m the star
Except the words don’t formulate
But I still know the script by heart
I’m spinning now,
I’m out of control now,
Does anybody hear me now?
DOUBTFUL
Nobody ever hears you scream
On the other side of the glass.