Shades of Blue

February 16, 2006

Shades of Blue

I hide behind this talisman
Of deep cerulean blue
It is more then just a jewel to me
It’s a strength I never knew
Whenever I find it hard to breathe
I take comfort in its smooth exterior
And the fact that it rests perfectly
Between my ribs and Close to my heart bone
It makes me feel that much less inferior
If I ever took it off the world would truly see
The deep criss-cross scar I have
Resting underneath
Every year it seems to fade
And melts within my skin
But every time my neck is bare
There the scar will then begin
I’ve tried so many things to cover it up
Over the years
I’ve altered my facade,
Changed my name
But without it,
I always seem to get lost in my tears

Sapphire charm
You’re like a shield from the storm
You weather the bad
And hoard in the good
And let true love begin to form
Yesterday you broke off of my neck
And fell into the cracks
I reached my feeble hand in to find you
And almost broke my back
I kept on digging
Hoping upon hopes that you would be there
I came back empty-handed
And full of unyielding despair

Azure pendant where are you now?
Did you find another heart to hide?
No matter how loud I wail and plead
You are gone and I am lost in the tide
Bare-chested and naked to the world
I find myself alone again
Just a lonely heartbroken girl
With a deep scar that I need to mend
Heal me with your powers
Make everything better again
Warm up my silent un-beating heart
Please don’t say this is the end

Indigo amulet you have slowly faded from me
I am sinking in my misery
And I am now nothing
This is what has become of me
Brittle bones and black heart
A shadow of what I once was
A memory of what I was to become;
I am merely blue dust in the wind.
After I had passed on
The skies began to weep
But in my grave
All the way underneath
A blue stone was found,
On my chest,
Between my ribs
Hiding my heart bone,
Finally allowing me to rest in peace.